Chapter 12

I went for a swim when I got in even though it was late and I had had a few glasses of wine, I needed to clear my head and the best way to do that at the moment was to exercise. I swam for just over an hour, showered then went and got a hot drink before I went to bed.

I tried everything not to think about Sidney. I read. I unsuccessfully tried to sleep. I even played my guitar for a couple of hours and started writing a song.

If I cannot get over this feeling by the start of next season I think I may put in for a transfer. I don’t want it to come to that, I love working with these boys and I love my house but I cant face seeing Sidney every day knowing that he will never love me the way I love him.

The next day Kirsty and I went out for lunch, she was telling me all her wedding plans and she asked me to be her chief bridesmaid which of course I said yes to. I knew that Sidney would be the best man but it was my best friends wedding and if that meant dancing with Sidney then dance with Sidney I will.

I explained to Kirsty about what had happened when I was leaving the night before, she thinks Sidney definitely has feelings for me too but just wont admit that to himself never mind to anyone else.

I also told her that if things don’t sort themselves out by the start of next season I am going to put in for a transfer – she swore she would not let that happen.

I know that when I first told Sidney how I felt that he said then that he had feelings for me too, I think now that maybe that was just an easy way out, I wish he would just tell me that he does not feel the same and put me out of my misery.

When I went home that evening there was an envelope sitting on my front door step. I picked it up on my way in, the writing on the front belonged to Sidney and immediately my heart starting thumping.

Inside was 2 front row tickets to tomorrow nights Bon Jovi gig in New York, with a note attached saying the following:

Gill Honey,

I have booked flights for you and one other to get you to New York for the gig which will leave shortly after training. A hotel in New York City Centre has been reserved along with flights returning the next day. I have also put a memo around the team saying that training will take place slightly later due to you being out of town for the night!

Enjoy and take care.

Sid ☺