Chapter 9

I was not sure what it would be like at training this morning, we had not finished talking and I don’t want him to feel awkward around me, however, things were fine, it was almost as if last night had never happened. I am not going to mention last night’s conversation for a while I will just see how things go and maybe wait and see how the Eagles gig pans out.

Kirsty moved in this weekend and we had a lot of things to sort out. As soon as we were settled on the Sunday night Geno picked her up and took her out for tea, I don’t think she will be staying with me for long somehow.

Sidney phoned tonight saying that he had a sore ankle and wondered if he could come round and do some exercises. He hurt it a couple of seasons ago and sometimes still has some pains from it. I told him to come round when he was ready. I heated the pool and got changed in to my swimming costume so that we could do some water exercises to ease the muscles. I had not been alone with him since my confession so I was a bit apprehensive.

Throughout my time as trainer I have also been completing a degree in physiotherapy so that I can be of some use when the lads get injured so when Sidney came round I examined his ankle and it appeared to be fine, no swelling or bruising but we did some water based exercising anyway and then relaxed with a drink. Once again he sat with his arm around me but I did not let on. It was supposed to get easier now that he knows how I feel, instead it just gets harder the more time I spend with him.

As we sat he told me that Geno was so in love with Kirsty, she was all he talked about and he was over the moon that she had immigrated to the US. I admitted that Kirsty felt the same and that I didn’t think it would be long until they were living together.

Not long after Sidney went home once again I was left alone, although I had so many friends more times than not these days I just felt lonely.

As the weeks went by I seen less and less of Kirsty and Geno and eventually they agreed that it was time for them to move in together. I was very happy for them but at the same time secretly jealous of what they had. I wanted that too and as time went by I missed Paul more and more, I wished that he was still with me but at the same time I wanted to be with Sidney but it was looking more likely that we would never be together.